feeling that seem so wrong

these feelings are so wrong, they shouldn't even exsit. how can i go on with them haunting my consions all the time, why does it have to be about him, i can't stand to even look at him. he seems to be like the dream i reach for but i can never have. like he is a whisper of wind through the trees and it lifts the small delicate leaves to somewhat of their doom. to them he is beautiful and they would do anything for him. without him their nights are lonly and their days are long, they wait and wait for him to come back,. sometimes he does but most of the time he is still. he leaves them wanting him more and more,