&& everything went wrong:(

On the fouth of July.
My boyfriend got his nipples pierced. Then
We went to a friends house.
We all ended up drinking. Except my boyfriend. Because when you get something pierced.
You can't drink or something'll happen with your blood.

So I ended up being completely wasted out of my mind.
(I've nver been that drunk in my life)

I wanted my boyfriend to kiss me. But he said no, because I was drunk.
I got really pissed off at him.
I ended up making out with some chick that was there.

Then he went out for a ciggerette.
I stormed outside and told him how much I hated him. (even tho I don't hate him at all)
Then went back into the house.
Then back outside and broke up with him and gave him back his ring.

And let me remind you I was drunk out of my mind.

I was crying so much,..,
I ended up taking a razor to my wrist infront of everyone.
If I was sober that definitely WOULDNT of happened.
Because that's NOT me

He hates me now:/

But the thing is, I fell inlove with him.
He's the only one I've ever felt something special. For.

What do I do. I want him back so bad:(

Please help?