Dear Journal --July 20th

Hello everybody :]

So my bff in real, her name on here is dropdead Darling. x3
And she's kick-bummy.
xD

So yeah. Let's talk about moi. xD

So guys.

Well. Since kindergarden i had this crush on this boy, and in grade 3 we went out fer like 2 days :P,, anyway. so since, he never said anything about liking me, but we're still good friends. Then we went to the much dance together, and yeah :] I wanted to date him when i turn 14, cuz im not allowed till then, but anyway, so he lead me on, but then i found out, he had a gf, they go on and off, but sill.

Then theres this guys named Matt.
I met him at a cristian family camp, and we stuck together like glue, always playing catch by his cabin. Then the next year, we were friends too, and we traded MSN'S, and we talked over like the internet and stuff, and i'd get so excited when he came online. He was so completely perfect. [thus, my poem blue eyes which i did write for him] he played guitar, wasnt too much taller than me, was christian, loved his family, family loved me, blonde, wonderful blue eyes, long eyelashes, sporty.... but then he stopped coming on msn. That was before school started last year. And now im going in grade 8....im still getting over him. He moved to Ontario......and now, i wont even see him at camp <//3

Then theres Chris. He's a sweety.
Chris and I met also at the same camp, and we still talk on webcam and stuff coz he lives in NS. He is very sweet, and he looks adorable when he cries. Hes one of my best friends, and one of my bff's little brother. He had a gf till recently, and now he's admitting he still likes me. :]

Then there is Brady. :l Hes going in grade six.
He 'apparently' likes me, and its kinda creepy, coz i only talked to him a few times in disgust. I do NOT like him, just two past things he's done. O.o like pulling up my dress when i was 7,,,and unzipping his pants and scaring me with his doodle when i was like 5.

o.o yeah. he did that. No lie.

Then there is Hunter.
Kinda creepy, no offense.
We met at drama fest this year, and hi mand two random girls came up to me. randow girl number one "Will you go out with him?" Random girl number two, "The one behind us." *shoves him out*

Hunter"Hi..."

"Sorry, I don't date. But I guess I could dance with him a few times."

So we danced and crap [hes not that good looking, sorry to say.] I gave hi mmy number and he still calls me. he freaks out every time i say i dont like him like that. ALWAYS freaking out! "Why dont you like me?!"

And im thinking,
because u hunt for fun.
you swear too much
your friends are mean to me
your too pushy and obsessive
Your freak out at me
And because your prejudiced.

He's like oh hes a jew.

And im like god your being stupid.
It's not nice. Jews, are like everyone else.

:l

Yeah my lifes quacked up :]

So okay what else to I have here?
Uh..

Okay on Mibba, sometimes im really hyper and happy like i am now :D

But then other times ill be really grumpy and mean depressed and uncaring.

I am NOT trying to be mean, or try and fit in with scenes or emos or whatever.

Some ppls call me an emo scene wanna be.

I wish I was scene. And not becuase my best friend is, its becuase they're really pretty.

I just get very depressed with the stuff thats confusing me in my life.

Okay nowfor something cheesy.
I like to take walks down on the shore underneath the bridge, or sit on the concrete pillers holding the bridge up. Especially alone, when its kinda cold and the winds blowing in my hair. I like to take pictures of myself down there too.

I LOVE reading. My favorite book is Breaking Dawn then Stay with me by dropdead Darling. x3 common guys! Help me make her type it up onto her PC! &#9829; You'll love it!
Anyway.

I'm a real romantic, and I haven't had my first kiss. I know sounds stupid, but you know i dun want it to be awful and with someone just to get it outta the way. I want it to be special. And i'd love for it to be
in the park
at night
standing
in the rain.
Would
L
O
V
E
them to death! &#9829;

Kay, gtg eat KD, and watch simpsons movie with my lil bro, and dropdead Darling. x3

&#9829; bye