I'm Crying Right Now..

I've just realized how terrible I was to him. The guy I'm in love with. He has no reason to ever love me and I don't think he ever will.. I can't believe I ruined it. All of it. Everything I could've had with him. And I had to go and do that! I did to everything I went through twice over. I wish I could just go to him and cry and tell him how sorry I am, but I can't. It makes me so mad. I let him go for so long. And now that he's given up, I finally realize that he should've been mine. I'll never get him now, and I'm positive of that.