Argumentative.

Ive been having moodswings. I hate it, seriously. I F***** get mad at everyone.
I even find reasons to feel upset & disappointed. and guess what ? My brain
absorbs all the of disappointmets from finding all those reasons., Especially my heart.
its hard for me to breathe. I wanna scream & yell. Thats what i always say when im angry.
Thats the only way i could think of to express what im feeling. Its better than yelling dont you think ?

*sigh, mibba, mibba, mibba. A place to write all my disappointments.
Heh, pretty bad huh ? to keep me out from feeling that way, id like to be busy.
I actually miss being busy. I wanna play volleyball & have practices in the
afternoon. I like how i serve the ball as if im angry at someone, Know why ?
Coz i take it all out on the ball. I toss the ball real high & hit it twice as hard
as i usually do in practices. It feels pretty good. It feels better than punching the
wall, heh. Been there, done that. Hitting the ball helps me focus on getting better.
It helps me realize things over and over again. It helps me forget
all the conflict ive been having since ever since.

I Wanna have the feeling of a spoiled little girl who gets whatever she wants.
Atleast i know that'll never happen. Im content as of right now. Although, i wanna
get out and treat myself for being a good and patient girl in every way she could think of.
Its 1:00 in the morning. August 14,2009- waiting for someone to go online
coz i know he usually does go online. Actually, He's ALWAYS online. thats why
i always have a hold of him anywhere.

p.s thnks mibba.
the end.