Alright, time to make an actual journal.

I don't fall in love fast, but when I first met her, I was on the ground before I knew anything about her.
Her name's Lydia. We became friends over AIM. But she wasn't a long distance friend, we live about ten minutes away.
My friend Erik invited us into a buddy chat and from there on, we got to know each other fast.
Eventually, we talked on the phone, and we had such a fun time.
For over a year, we talked on the computer and on the phone. But we met at a festival in May of this year.
After that, we hung out numerous times, and we started saying, 'I love you.'
I thought it was the perfect time to ask her out. I had a feeling that'd we last forever.
But things changed.
I invited her and her friend over last week, and I was planning on asking her then.
Her friend was secretly helping me with asking her out, and when I told her I was ready, she gave me advice.
I walked away for a moment to talk to my sister, and when I came back, her friend pulled me to the side and told me not to ask her anymore.
So, I didn't.
But then I texted her about it. She said that things changed.
How could things change so quickly? What was the real reason?
She said that she fell out of love.
In a week? That doesn't seem likely.
Then she told me something that hurt the most.
'We need to take a break from being friends.'
Ouch. That hurt. Bad.
So not only did I lose my crush;
But I lost my best friend too.
Now I cant take two steps without thinking of her.
Everything I look at makes me think of her. It hurts.
We ocasionally have small conversations that last about ten to fifteen minutes.
I'm only 13, and I've experienced heartbreak.
It hurts.