I'm so confused. I'm so hurt. I'm feeling so used. I want sleep so badly. I haven't slept for more than 10 hours for the past 5 days. I want to cry. I want to think straight.
My main problem is this guy.
He's speaking in riddles and I want someone who who show me they want me. I don't them to edge around it. We were suppose to hang out today. He basically told me to take initiative and I did, I asked him to hang out with me. Just on a whim, not knowing what would happen, not knowing what to expect. But he's been following through on our plans so far. And it's been great. So when I texted him today I didn't think the plan would follow through. Until he made it so. And then later on, after I had a miserable night by myself. He imed me.
Him: Thanks for hanging out with me!
Me: >:[
Him: I ended up coming home and napping for three hours.
Me: Well I went to the doctor and came home crying because I didn't want to have blood work done if that makes you feel better about napping.
Him: I guess it does. But we still should have done something
Me: I guess.
Him: You suck.
Me: Don't even.
I'm not the one who broke the plan. I was trying to get him to come over and just hang out with me. I'm so frustrated. I'm hurt. I want to think straight. I think I'm wasting my time. I just want to know what he's thinking.
I feel hypocritical because I don't know what I want either. So I feel like if I brought it up I'd end up hurting myself. I'm an idiot.
What would you do?
I'm confused. Haven't slept more than 10hrs over the past 5 days. I need advice.
August 22nd, 2009 at 08:48am