vanishing

i am still wallowing in this sorrow filled pit of a life of mine, no one to love, and putting on wait go me. not. so mum has to go back to work and my ass off a step dad is being a b!tch about not having his drivers licence. read three books in three days, bored of having nothing to day in and day out. i swear I'm done....trying not to be an emo and cut myself since i quite doing it after my "friend" told me to stop, the feel of the blade over my flesh is one of knowing, that i am real and still here evern though io dont really want to be. it helps me forget the emotional pain i am suffering. I feel like that kid in the back off the class that no one would notice if they just vanished i feel like i am vanishing and no one is there to grab my hand and help me be visible again

i sound like an emo...