Forever Broken?

I hate this. I really do. Dimitri and I haven't talked since early July. I told him that I wanted him to find someone else that could do help him since I couldn't. Well, he did just that and now I feel like shit.
It's September 7th, it's been 3 months since I last talked to him, almost 4 since I've seen him. The last couple of times I spoke with him we always fought. We weren't even going out, but we were trying to. I just... I have no idea why I told him some of the things I said. At the time I believed them, I still do, but why does it hurt?
He's seeing someone else now. "Mitri & Mui Forever". It hurts. I haven't even found someone else yet and he already claims to be in love with someone new. I think I know why it hurts, I think I do.
I know for sure now, he'll never hold me again. I know for sure now, I'll never hear him say "I love you" to me. I'll never be the one he can talk to ever again. I hate it. I don't want to hurt over him when he doesn't even remember who I am. He thinks I hate him, hell he probably hates me. I don't want to think about him anymore, I don't want to feel anything towards him anymore. I don't want to imagine running into him. I don't want to feel hurt. He's happy, so why can't I?

Please comment. Advice is very, very welcome.

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