Been a while!

So her I am. Sitting in the mac lab at my new college. Thinking. Thinking about what you may ask? About everything i've ever wanted. about the people I miss so freaking much. About the smiles and laughs and happy fits of joy I had all my last year. I miss the pain and the heart break and the saddness that came with all those positive things. I miss just living and being and breathing and everything I've ever stood for. I miss them, her, him me. I miss it all. I just realize that college is not the same. Drama is pointless, Pain is futile, and Resistence means nothing when you have nothing to resist. College is different in the ways im ready for.