Lost.

Have you ever had someone in your life that meant everything to you? That you would do anything for?

I used to.

I'm not going to go into what happened, but I've had only two people in my life that I really would have taken a bullet for. But I discovered that they probably wouldn't do the same for me. They've both lied to me so many times and now...

I don't even know what now. I don't know what to do with myself cause I can't deal with the pain and betrayal anymore. I know what you're all thinking. You're saying to yourself that I need to get the fuck over it and move on. If you say that to me, you're just going to sound like a broken record.

Thing is, I can't. Everyone I come in contact with has betrayed me, and now with the two people I loved and admired most screwing me over, my trust is gone for anyone.

Picking up the pieces just doesn't seem like an option this time. =/

I don't know what to do.