i'm..

MAD!

will anyone ever like me? will a guy EVER see me for ME?!
will any guy ever think of me of more than a friend?
i say this all the time, but its ALWAYS on my mind.
i try and be happy, but inside i know i will NEVER be happy.

some guy in my school touched my ass yesterday. he said i should stay still to be fingered.
i know..
its so gross.
he does it to like every girl.
well, not EVERY girl, but like the slutty ones?
which makes me wonder why he did it to me.
i am the complete OPPOSITE of a slut !
but whatever.
it doesnt even matter.
its the only time a guy would ever think of me in a way other then "that fat girl"
which is sad, because the only time a guy sees me is in a gross way..