idk...10-11-09 =]

I hate myself
For not being good enough for you
For not being able to be there for you
For not being able to chase away your fears
For not being able protect you

Ok i give up. I'm trying to write down my feelings. And i suck at it. Honestly. Andeh words cant describe how i feel. I love you. You know that. And I want to be there for you. I do. But I can't. And that sucks. And it makes me feel like crap. Worse than crap. Like dog mucus....ew. I wonder if this is enough words yet? and i dont even know what to call this journal...