is it worth it?

I got home from school and i get bitched at. i have depression and i self harm. i dont know how to handle it but find releafe in a blade. i will lock myself in my room just to get away. i start crying as the blood starts rolling and wonder what this life is really for.

i cant stop, the cuts just keep getting deeper and deeper. scars everywhere. no one knows but one of my best friends. i showed her the cuts and she thought it was sick.

a blade is the only way for me. one day its gonna go to far and i wont be here. i have thought about suicide but dont know if i could do it, so i just cut.

i need help

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