self injury

I have been cutting myself for almost a year now. I need a way to ease the pain. My father is a recorving drunk that aint doing good. He is always drinking, he drinks a quart a day. I feel like im useless cause he says im his everything. I feel guilt and hurt inside and need to release it. I have told 3 friends about my cutting and 1 is really helping me with it. I want to stop but as soon as im around my father the pain is all back and i get the urge to cut. Im at the point where cutting is not enough I have started to burn myself. I cant deal with this anymore. I find myself useless and worthless and I want to die.