If you were my Romeo

I'm going crazy. I think I like this one guy but I'm not sure. I don't even know if I'm able to love anymore. I had a crush on this one guy for some ridiculous amount of time (like 9 years). I don't want to like him anymore but I keep going back to him and I'm sick of it. I've been falling fast, lately. It's terrible. What am I to do? Every time I get a new crush I still feel an ache for the guy that I've liked forever. My life is a mess. I've been asked out by this one guy like 16 times and every time I find away to get out of it. My head is filled to the top and I can't empty it fast enough. **SCREAM** I'm going to write a poem it'll have the same title as this journal.