Dreaming and Having are Two Different Things

Have I lost my heart? Yes. Have I had people criticize me? Yes, but who hasn't. I hold on to things too long, get caught up in it all.

Shyness is my biggest obstacle. I don't speak to people very often, especially now. Five years in this new place, and I think I've only made about five friends, if that. Reading keeps my mind off the things I normally think about. Are people looking at me? What do they think? I blush all the time, always giving away my chagrin. If i had to speak in public to save my life, I would fail. That's my downfall.

Some nights I dream of being a superstar singing on stage. That is my dream, but dreaming and having are two different things. Stupid me. I can't sing. But I can dream.