Merry Christmas

It's finally Christmas. I should be really happy that I don't have to go back to school for two whole weeks. But I'm not. I'm pretty lonely actually. My friends wanna hang out with me too, so it's not like nobody likes me. I just don't have the heart to be with them for some reason...
I guess it's just because of my boy problems but I should be able to just get over things like that. But it's different this time. I feel like whatever I do I always end up messing up. Like everywhere I turn I'm hurting somebody. Its really hard sometimes. I feel like bashing my head into the wall!
But whatever. I'll get over it eventually.
The question isn't yes or no, but when