Life in a parallel universe

my life is a one where when things get complicated others dont want to talk. they block me ignore me and any other form. when will someone be true with me, and real. when am i going to find tht someone who will like me for me, who will take me as i am. when someone who can look on the inside for love and not the out. i live in a parallel universe where i dream of the real me and the real relastionship that i am missing. anyone out there please help me understand why im stuck on the inside and looking out into the real world