IM SO BROKEN

i dont usually do this, i usually write poetry, but i need a place to write without anyone seeing. Oh my god, im soo hurt right now i cant breathe...my eyes are killing me they've been crying so much, and i cant speak. God, i love her so much, i love her to much, and theres this guy, and hes perfect, but the problem is hes me! No actually me, but everything he has ever said and done is me! i hate him i hate him soo much

see, im in love with my best friend, shes perfect, absolutely perfect, and i belong with her, theres no one else out there for me, shes my cure, my vaccine, everything i need, and she doesnt even look at me, she knows how i feel for her, and the only thing she tells me is lies, and to do stuff thats impossible, She tells me she cant risk our friendship, and she tells me to forget her, and i cant, god, dont think anymore because shes in my mind, shes all i think about, every second of my day is drowned in the thought of her, and her name, and at alone at night, when its windy, and you hear the wind through the trees, all i hear is....cierra.....cierra....cierra....and it wont leave me alone.

in the past two weeks this guy came into the picture, his name is Adryan [Adrian] and omg. He has told her everything i told her, he has said everything i said, he has done everything i had done, and HE WONT TAKE HER FROM ME, I'LL FIGHT HIM AWAY, I CANT LOSE HER, NO WAY IN THE WORLD WILL I STAND BY AND LET SOMEONE TAKE MY ONLY CHANCE OF HAPPINESS AWAY FROM ME....

im not being selfish. i just....know her, and i know me. i picture us, 10 years from now, together, and we're happy, and we're laughing, and then....just one small kiss, at the dead of night, bringing it to life, and i smell her, right now i smell her, flowers, and cigarettes, the best smell in the world... i can picture us 20 years from now, shes my wife, we have our three kids, our twins Cassandra Lee, and Christopher Michael, and our youngest Cole Alan, and we're together and im perfect...so, so perfect

The poems i posted here, anything that referenced you, [except mother, and Without you] was about her, and especially Stay, everything in stay is true, and was based off things we did together...

we talk all night and we talk all day, and i know in my heart i cannot stay away...

Cierra i love you
theres nothing stronger in this universe except for my love to you
The only thing that may be stronger, is my deep burning to be with you