I CAN'T STAND IT!!

I can't take it anymore.
Every website I look on there is always something about Jimmy..
I can't stand to read them.
I'm still in my shell that this is a sick,crude funny joke that Jimmy and Johnny have planned for us.
I can't take it anymore.I might be like Brian and post crap on my Facebook saying I'm going to hurt myself.I seriously can't take it.I spent my New Year's crying because I'm sooooooooo confused as to what is REALLY going on.I think NONE of this is true.Everyone's telling me everything will be ok,but I know it won't be.So please.Try and make everything in reality come to me and help me understand.I'm not the type of person to just pick up my pieces and move on.Just like when Jeremy "Pitbull" Lusk died.I can't pick up the pieces and go on.I'm sorry,so please try to help me with it.
Love you guys.
Kortnee Rachelle Blackledge