Screwed Up

I messed/screwed up.
Why do people like him have to be so irresistible? I couldn't stay away.
I feel so used. He kissed me. Said he loved me. And we weren't even dating. What kind of guy does that? So many people tried to tell me that he was like that, but would I listen? No. I had to find out for myself. To see if the things he was telling me were true for once.
I believed it. And now I see what a dick he really is.
Sympathy is something I don't deserve. It was my own fault. I'd barely known him for three weeks before hand. I knew nothing about him. I thought that maybe I'd found someone good for me that wasn't on drugs and that didn't completely ignore me.
I was wrong. He wasn't good for me. And he has no idea how this has effected me. This... thing that we had.
He's dated so many people before this and now he's telling me he doesn't want a relationship? Sure, I could understand not wanting that. But was it really necessary to kiss me? To bring me back into whatever game he's trying to play?
I screwed up. And love sucks.