Needy people

I'm not one to rant and moan about relationships
I'm not someone who is dependent on others
I really couldn't care less.
I have my friends
I don't need to scope out guys
I'm lazy
Too lazy for a relationship
I've never really been a real relationship...In my book elementary and middle school don't count
My longest relationship was like...2 weeks
and I got bored
I wasn't really interested.

I'm scared of having a serious relationships....I over think them
I have heard so many broken hearted people
I'd rather have my heart broken when I'm older
When I was in middleschool I was considered a slut because I had guy friends in the grade above me...I I'll admit I was crushing on them hard
But I realized I was in love with the idea of love
and now it's just scary

I want to have fun
I don't want to be spending my time with a boyfriend who is needy...or wants something from me

Ever since I was younger people come to me with their problems and over the years it's happened more and more
I don't want a boyfriend who does all those awful things I find out
from the many girls who come to me in tears
it's scary
this whole thing is scary

Is having fun
Just acting my age
Just dancing around like no one is watching
Just running around like an 8 year old because it makes me happy
too much to ask for?

I love having guys as friends
but what they do to their girlfriends
is not something I'm prepared to face.......