Artic freeze in the middle of july!!!!!

So the last time I wrote a journal entry I got a comment from who ever, that said my journal entry would be worth reading if the grammar and spelling wasn't so fucked up. So I deleted the comment and thought about it for about an hour, why? Why did I let someone I don't even know get too me? This is my journal if you don't like how I write or spell then don't come back every time and read what I have too say. Ok moving right along. This weekend has been hard, I keep coming home and crying or crying in Chad's arm's. I feel like I have a bull's eye on me and everyone is taking a shot at me. My mom is the only one who will tell me the truth besides my Sandra. I have dreams, I have a future... So why am I stuck in the now? I don't like this feeling. My sister from New Jersey is here today and I'm nervous, she is so perfect in my eyes and I just want to be like her. I want to be strong and independent, a quiet soul with a loud heart. i know this is off topic but I'm addicted to Iron Chef the secret ingredient is figs, i hate figs but they make things look so yummy. Do you have a dream? I do, I want to own my own restaurant. I want to smell like food when I get home. I want to make people go wow from their mouth to their stomach. Oh I made a drink once when I was at my dad's and bored and I call it Artic freeze in the middle of july, I like things cold like right before freezing. This drink was awesome I know it had triple sec, sour mix, pineapple juice, and apple juice I think lol but it was good, well I'm going to bed I'm tired