Till Death Is My Only Friend

I'm finding it hard to sleep at night. It is getting worse, no matter what I try. I'm becoming even more depressed. So instead of sleeping, I cut away at my skin. I try and act like nothings wrong, like I am still happy and carefree. With out sleep I am finding it hard to keep up with school work and scouts and piano. I am also loosing my appetite, there fore loosing weight. Which is not a good thing, for I am already underweight. My boyfriend is starting to notice, but he still thinks I'm not emo that I can make it. But I know its not long now, till death is my only friend.