stupid, stupid !!! Panic attacks ...

It started because of the stress I think.But I´m not entierly sure.I woke up,my heart racing and I got this uncontrolable fear.My hands were cold and i was trembling.My breath was short,I couldn´t breathe.My chest was in pain.I felt a rush of adrenaline and I was almost hyperactive at that moment.This episodes appeared random and I still cant figure out the pattern.But I got this … its called a panic attack.I tryed everything for this to stop.Damn,I don't even know how many times I've tried.I lost count.I wonder,what is the real cause?I haven't allowed myself to consider it yet.How absurd - it would seem to be the crux of the matter,and I've completely avoided it.Am I truly preoccupied, or just afraid of what I might find?