Helpless

If I hadnt been born into the family I was, would I be happy? would I actually want to live? Would my mom look upon me with disgrace and hatred? Would my father want to hug me? All of these questions seem to pop into my head at the randomest times. What would happen if I was normal? Is what my family seems to always ask whenever they think I am not in the room. At times I just wish they would accept me, but my life is too screwed up for that to ever happen to someone like me.
I am Jenna Rosier and I live the life a depressed eighteen year old girl who has no idea who she is even though she is practically an adult. what do i do?
~Jenna~