Turn Back The Time

So I haven't pretty much wrote a journal for a while so here it goes......

If I could have one wish, it would be to turn back the time. I would want to savor the moments of childhood. Even though I'm still young, I think at an older age maybe 17 or 18. It's weird right? I'm under 15 if you don't know me personally. Anyway, I would want to go back to time where I could be as weird and strange as I want and not be judged. Where I could hang out at a guy's house without anyone thinking something more than just playing games. Why do we have to change? That's what I don't get. Why suddenly when we're older we're suddenly different? Why does popularity even matter? It's all just so confusing. Life's too complex for me now. I know it's going to get worse as I get older, and I know I won't like it one bit. Girl's and guys can't be friends with each other without there being something more apparently. Where did all the times go when making choices was either between what color you should chose and which lunch you should eat. Why do we all have to change? Why do horomones have to change us? I just wish I could stay a little kid. More freedom, and less time to worry about my future. Growing older is stressing me out. With my mom yelling at me for being stupid or my friends critizing me on how I'm not beautiful enough for them, things are killing me slowly. I'm practically giving my life away now. I miss the playgrounds back in elementry school, and the less work. I wish I could just turn back the time