Argh, just...ARGH!

I understand people who didn't go through what i did or anything close won't understand but to tell me I'm being close-minded and to move on is just too far. That man and the woman who claims to be a mother but only wants her children for child support money abused me for 5 ling years, the crap before all of that I can handle but it's only been just 4 months since I've moved out, I'm still a mess I need more counseling, I have depressionm I don't have proper emoions because of what I went through. I still remember hearing that man abusing mum at 1 in hte morning, a school night and all I could do was turn my music up. I was alone, scared and broke so no I can't let go, it messed me up and I'm trying as hard as I can got get through this but it will take years for me to cope.

I wish people understood.