whats happening to me??

i´m feeling kinda confused these days.
since last friday i´ve been dreaming constantly with one of my guy friends. we are not that close but in my dreams its looks like he knows me better than anyone. last saturday i went to a birthday dinner and he was there. a felt something when i saw him, when he was saying hi to everyone , he gave two kisses on the cheek of the other girls and he just embraced me,then we have been igored each other the rest of the party.

i don´t really know how to act in these kind of situations because right now i can´t think . my life is just to stressful and i´m still recovering from a heartbraking so i´m very confused.

thank god i found The gazette (Ruki <333 )because if they didn´t exist in my life at this moment , i don´t know what esle i could do besides eating cakes : P .

ps: going to the psychologist its difficult too.