Just another day with him on my mind.

He is always on my mind. Always, whether I’m doing schoolwork, watching television, hanging out with friends, I’m thinking of him. Even while I'm sleeping, I still dream of him. I love him completely. I am so glad to call him mine once again, and not have the awkwardness of loving him while he’s withher. But I miss the openness we once had. Even while we weren’t together, we told each other basically everything, talked about anything. Being with him again I realize he’s closed himself off, He doesn’t tell me what’s wrong anymore. And it makes me think, does he not trust me anymore? He used to tell me everything, but slowly, over the last month or so, he stopped letting me in. Stopped coming to me when he needs someone to talk to about his problems. Its hard, knowing my own boyfriend won’t tell me what’s going on in his head. I love what we have, and the connection we share, but I find sorrow in the fact we are no longer as open as we once were. I try my hardest now, to be more open with him; all I want more than being close to him, is for him to do the same. When he doesn’t tell me things, my mind will begin to wander, wondering what he’s not telling me, imagining different scenarios. Letting my mind do that only makes me worry, yet I can’t stop wondering what he’s not saying. I’m scared I’m going to lose him, the guy in my dreams. My everything.