February 21 2010 12:30 pm

FUCK, FUCK FUCK FUCK. Oh my God. Why wont she leave my fucking mind!!! I try drinking away her memories, why doesn't that work?? Probably because I have too many drunken memories of her to forget!! In my heart, she's not what I what I want, yet why must she haunt me?? I don't know anymore. I have what my heart wants. She's amazing and I love her, but why do her these memories haunt me?? Fuck this world!!!!!!!! This isn't what I wanted!!! I want to be happy, yet why wont my soul be happy? My heart is happy, but why wont my soul be happy?? I don't understand anymore. Fuck it all.