Future...

March 3, 2010 2:02 pm

Fml. That explains my life so well right now.The future I had in mind is no more, so much has changed in so little time... I wanted to move in with my boyfriend, whom i love very much, to be rid of my family, to live back where he and I grew up. Do you have any idea how it feels to fall asleep in the arms of the man you love, the man of your dreams? Well neither do I, nor will I get a chance to. Why does life enjoy fucking me over in such ways? Everytime something goes good in my life, something or someone always comes along to fuck it over. I know what my future holds, and its slowly and painfully killing me knowing he's not part of it. All I want more then anything is to go back to how things were only a few days ago. I want my dream, and his dreams to have a chance at coming true, possibly. I want to be able to wake up each morning in his arms, to listen to him laugh at me whenever I do something ridiculous, to hear him say how redonculous I am, oh how that word has always bugged me. But I'd give anything to hear it again because I want him in my future.