I still love you anyways

My mom and i never get along.

In fact she hates me.

I always knew it but she just assured me that.

She told me I was her biggest mistake and that she never loved me or wanted me.

I learned to live with it.

I cry when no one sees me.

I suffer when nobody sees me.

I learned to live with someone who will never love me.

But sometimes i ask my myself:Why am I so stupid?.I cry knowing that this will not do anything to change anything.

Nobody knows how much i suffer because nobody needs to know.

My mom always yelled at me and hit me but i always though it was for my own good now i know it wasn't for my own good.

But i learn to love her.She gave me life and i never asked her to.

And i also learn that love is selfish and hurtful.

I know deep inside maybe she loves me.If she doesn't well,she can join to the line then.

But what i'm 100% sure is that I love her,

I love her no matter what.

She is my mom.