after that horrible day ) :

Oh so many thoughts rushing threw my head! None of them i can trust fully to go with. If only one stuck out more then the other, then i wouldnt be so confused about what i should do. If he wouldnt have done this i know things would be okay. I was just begining to feel again, matter of fact feel happy again. But noooo he doesnt have the fucking guts to even try. I mean what did he have to loose. I should be the one scared about it. He tried to explain it the best way he could but i still dont understand. Nothing ventured nothing gained, is what i think. He cant loose something he never had, neither can I. the problem with that is he had my heart in the palm of his hand. Apparently he wasnt smart enough to know what to do with it. Now i know the feeling of not being wanted when you want them...oh wait i have been here before. That is why it has taken me so long to try again. But before I get a chance it is taken from me by somebody who dont even kno me. Who obviously doesnt wanna kno me, or he would try.