I insult someone. I don't try to always be nice, by any means. But I know that when I let myself engage in any sort of verbal altercation, that I probably should have just let it go.
It's honestly not worth it.
However, if I feel the need to write/say something and do, I can't leave it at that. Someone will surely write/say something back, and I physically can't stop myself from firing away another answer. It's one of my worst habits, because I know that I shouldn't do it. My whole rational mind is like, don't even bother. And I just can't stop myself. It's like an obsession with having the last word. I'll literally fight until I can.
Sometimes I'll be so desperate to get the final word that I'll cut someone down to something completely unrelated. That's when I start to feel bad. Not bad enough to apologize, because if I'm not wrong, why should I, but bad in the sense that I really didn't need to take part at all.
I make myself so mad. I get torqued up, as my principal likes to say. I always laugh when he uses the expression, but it's actually a good word for how I feel inside. Like everything is jumbled up? It makes sense to me anyways.
On a brighter note! I am recovering from my brush with a spinal injury quite nicely. If all goes according to plan, I'll be able to be back riding on Monday!
Have a great Friday everyone!
I always feel really bad when..
March 19th, 2010 at 07:04am