The Truth

People tell me I'm beautiful
But i don't feel like i am

There literally is not one person in the world that knows me. The real me.
I'm not this girlie bubbly girl that people see me as

The truth about me.
I come home crying everyday
I cry over stupid stuff like a C in a class.
Because i know i will get yelled at when i get home.

I try to find that one person i can tell anything to, and they wont run away thinking I'm a freak or weird or something, and wont tell my secrets

The truth
I'm scared.
Scared of losing someone that either one I'll fall for(in a guys case), or losing a best friend (in a guy or girl case).

Everyday i try to find someone.
But no one really is there to find.
I have no one to call at 2 a.m. when i'm crying because my boyfriend broke up with me and would answer.
I have no one that would walk 10 miles just to hug me when i'm sad

The truth
I just want there to be someone for once

Someone i again can tell anything too and wont leave, someone that will answer their phone at 2 a.m. because i cant sleep, or will stay up and text me when my parents are fighting.

Maybe i should just stop dreaming about this someone. And just continue with life without them.

-Erica