I guess it scares me.

So I've never felt like this before. It's the strangest thing. He's so perfect. Jimmy Ward. I've never taken guys seriously, I'm way too young, but this is so different. Everytime I talk to him I get butterflies like no other. Thinking about him makes me smile. Just hearing his voice makes my day. I couldn't thing of anything else I'd rather do than spend time with him. His laugh, his smile, his gorgeous eyes, his lame jokes, it's all amazing. I guess it scares me because I'm too young and careless to feel like this. I do what I want and throw it all away. But I don't want to throw this away. I'm scared of losing him. That I'm gonna do something to fuck it up and then he'll be gone. I've never felt so happy as I am now and I'll do everything in my power not to mess up this time. Like I've done so many times before. It's perfection.

I'm fifteen. I'm too young to be in love. So what can I call it?