Im a little bit insecure;

So lately, I’ve been wishing I wasn’t myself. I just sometimes wish I was someone completely different. Ive been wanting a major head change, blah. Sometimes, I just look at myself in the mirror and think, “Why me?” They say that God created the way we look for certain reasons, I just sometimes think God REALLY fucked me over. I’ve come to realize that I dislike everything about me. Sometimes I’m not “pretty” enough to being too chunky or to even down right hating my skin color!

I weigh 132 lbs. to me, that isn’t too bad for being 5”2. But apparently, at my height, I’m over weight and supposed to be averaged at 120 lbs. I don’t look fat, I think. I feel fine in some outfit but when I look in the mirror I become horrified with love handles and, to my dismay, I even lift up my shirt and stare at my stomach in the mirror for what seems like hours. It’s just something I cannot help. I often think I’m chunky. As I’m turning to look at my side, its even worse. It looks as if I have a mini gut and I have faded stretch marks on my sides! That’s just gross in my opinion.
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