Friendship and ?cquaintance

We shouldn't call people friends easily. They can betray us as easily as we call them friends. Today I've seen a book which was about how we should learn to trust. But I think the author haven't considered those poor people, who are suffering from the extended trust, not from the lack of it.

Personally, I've been burned many times. I hoped, I wished, I begged all supernatural and natural forces to become friends with someone. I did my best, even changed myself few times, but in the end they all turned out to be plain, empty, shallow people who weren't worth my trust, my friendship and, of course, my personality. I told myself not to get my hopes up, but everytime it's the same.

My another point can be expressed in the following question: should we be led by a habit or should we just find someone who suits more? I don't really know the answer. I just kept thinking about it this morning. Two different situation. Two people I know well. Two choices for the future. And I suppose I'm most certainly a selfish person if I won't even consider staying in my hometown for my friend. But if she had an ooportunity, would she use it? Of course, she would. Well, actually, come to think about it, it's a mystery. I don't understand my friend. Does it mean that she isn't my friend, but just an acquaintance? I don't know the answer to this question too.

So in conclusion of my first journal entry, I will tell one simple fact: we mustn't analyze our feelings. In perfecion, we shouldn't even notice them, because it's well-known that we can be happy, like really happy, only if we aren't even aware of it.