time to tell me the truth

Have you ever wondered what you could hear if you listened carefully?
Have you ever wondered what you could see if you looked closely?
Everyone I encourage you to pay close attention to the ones you care about, to try to understand the words they say and the way the move.
To read between the lines and find out what that person is truly feeling.
Recently I had a boy tell me he liked me, but there was someone else he liked to. I kept on telling myself well maybe he'll choose me even though he liked her for longer. I was so caught up in my own fantasy and desires I failed to see what he really wanted but was too afraid or ashamed to accept. Finally he came to terms with it and broke away, he told me what he wanted and it was not me. He told me her name, it sounded familiar in a way, i could have sworn I had heard him say it ten thousand times, if only i had been listening. Along the way he was so preoccupied with avoiding hurting anyone he forgot to stop and think about what he wanted, rather than what everyone else wanted. So it was time to tell me the truth, to burden his mouth with what he says, no pieces of paper in the way, because i couldn't continue pretending to choose, these opposite sides on which we fell, loving him later if at all. No right minds should wrong someone this many times. My memories are cruel, I'm queen of attention to details, defending intentions if he fails. Until now I wasn't listening
so this is my promise:
I promise not to be angry or upset for you choosing to be with who makes you happy, because thats all I wanted for you anyways.
I promise not to be dramatic and exaggerate the way I am feeling, or to ever speak an ill word about your choice.
And most of all I promise I wont go anywhere, and our friendship will always be the same. No matter what time you call, because of how little you sleep especially when your in a relationship, i will answer. No matter if you have anything at all to say, even if you have nothing to say I will sit there and listen to you ramble. No matter what everybody else thinks of us being friends, ill still be around :)
And I also promise not to think your crazy, for...well, the things you do, say, and see. <3