I Stitched my heart closed

Another night fighting with everyone around me. These memories were shattered by past mistakes.

I tried to break the walls with my heart, but people kept building their defenses. I only tried to make peace within everyone, and yet they (my friends) continued to hate each other for no reason at all. Last night someone said, "You're the last person in this world who doesn't resort to hate...You still give them your friendship even when they have taken so much out of you..."

Now I found myself trapped in this all alone and I can't get out... I'm left to fight everyone everyday because of their greedy desire to regain the lost memories. They complain that things aren't the same between us and blame me, but how can I give any more when they have taken so much already? So now I stitched my heart closed. Before, I let anyone break through my barrier, but now I can't even let them catch a glimpse of my heart. This hurts.

I shouldn't care anymore, but I feel even more alone than I was before...