You are always on my mind

I both love and hate this feeling. Part of me wants to run from it and the other wants to indulge in it and fall all the deeper into it. This feeling is the greatest in the world, but the fear of what I know it will lead to is my greatest.
Once you have fallen in love, you are all to keenly aware when you are falling again. I know what smile meant even if he didn’t. It meant simply that he was amazing me, and he was making me fall for him. The simple timbre of his voice gave me cold chills. What can I say I’m a sucker for when a guy sings to me. He sent chills down my spine like only one person has done before.
So did I run? Or do I let myself fall? Do I take the road and let it lead me to my own heart break. Only will it really kill me this time? Do will I break his? Can I be who I know I want to be for him. Or is that girl simply gone. Has cynicism simply taken over my mind and will I not be able to remain loyal. He deserves nothing less, but I don’t know if I can give my heart completely over to him. So do I end it before too many tears will shed or do I let myself fall?
May 19th, 2010 at 04:18am