twas the night before darkness

Death... Is it not what we are living for? He not busy being born is busy dying.
Death our only friend or so they say.
I only get to die once i just hope I'm there for it.
It would be a shame to miss my own death. After all I've been waiting my whole life for it.
What happens next doesn't concern me, rather what i do with right now.
There's no time like right now! I don't believe in the so called "present" there's only a perpetual future. Death is not frightened by i neither am i frightened of death. After all life hurts a lot more, in death the pain is over. I always feel more alive the closer i am to death.
So what to do with my Wednesday evening? Feel more alive?
Or sit here and ponder things i cannot see with these human eyes.
Maybe ill journey into another realm or plain of existence this eve.
Delve into another dimension only obtainable through a derangement of the senses.