Dear Self,

You must believe there is a purpose for everything going astray. Believe in yourself. There is no need for a higher power. You will get out of here and when you do it will be the best day of your fucking life. Learn to love yourself and don't be afraid to get close to people because you have picked out all the bad apples. There are only four apples left. Cherish them for it is difficult to find people like that no matter where you go. Live and learn to love, but don't surrender yourself completely. You're not a horrible person because you're not perfect. You're far from it. No one's perfect. No one ever will be. Make the best of this summer. Be grateful. A lot of people don't have what you have and would kill for it. Soon things will change the only thing necessary is patience and knowing that love is enough. It's what keeps you going and you know it. You will always love her no matter what and couldn't ask for better friends on this site. Be happy you're alive and well.