this is me. love me or leave me.

why do i seem to find myself in these weird and confusing situations?!?!?!?

ok so when i started dating John i was so totally in love with him. i would do anything for him. i truly thought i loved him. at the time i threw away a lot. my hopes of things such as a lip ring and such. so now i might have the opportunity to get 1.

amazing! but...john.....would...hate ...it.....

so what do i do...i wanna be me and make my own decisions but if i love him then don't i wanna put aside silly things like that? ugh....I'm so confused.

my friends hate the guy anyway. they say hes controlling and i mean, maybe he is just a lil but its not a problem...they say he might get worse.

this is me. dyed hair, chewing my nails, nervously steppin on my feet. this is me with paint on my skin, spinin a pottery wheel. mixing songs with my huge dj headphones. unattractive? this is me.

love me for me inside and out or don't be with me.

this is so confusing...grrrrrrrrr.

-k@rRiNa*