I Don't Feel Beautiful, Or Perfect

"Your fat, maybe you learn how to diet" (that's what i was told by this one girl who hates me and her brother (who i wrote an journal entry about)...)
Does being 3 pounds over healthy count as being fat?
Some days i think i look pretty others i think i don't
I don't have anyone to tell me everyday I'm gorgeous...
So now i don't feel pretty.
I feel ugly, stupid, fat, not amazing
I find sharp objects and cut them across places i want to change
My stomach, legs, arms, and face.

I just want to feel pretty.
Have someone tell me I'm beautiful again.

I miss it.

A lot

Just wish everything was like it use to be.
Had him to tell me every day
Your beautiful, Your perfect.

Now since he's gone.
I don't feel beautiful, or perfect