Explosion of the Mind

The title says a lot about this journal. I fell that now, like always, when things start to look up and seem kind of happy and joyous, i remember everything bad that has happened to me.

Things are starting to affect my mood and im not as happy as i want to be. I dont want to do much of anything. One of my friends' thinks that im slipping into a depression and is very worried for me. I dont want to be a bother to him and i feel like im putting too much on his shoulders to help me. Thats not what i want.

Im starting to rethink everything good thats happened in the past 2 months (about). Im starting to worry myself because normally this will only last a few hours to at most a whole day. But this time its lasted almost 4 days.

Im trying to be as "normal" as i possibly can be..but im not sure what to do.
If you guys have any ideas id be very grateful.

So thank you for the comments/advice.

-Courtney