Guys... why?

Were guys just put on the planet to test me? Is that what this little thing is- a test? Cause I don't know how to pass. Do I talk to him about what is going on? Do I tell him the truth? I'm afraid of hurting him if I tell the truth. Cause the truth is: I have been hurt way too much to completely trust anyone with these pieces called my heart. I've let too many other people have at it. I don't think I could handle someone else doing that. I don't feel 100% comfortable with him either. He's too touchy-feely with me. We aren't dating. I'm not used to anyone hugging me from behind, kissing my forehead, holding my hand, or generally just touching me unless they are related to me or dating me. He is neither. What is going on? I don't understand and obviously neither does God; I asked him, he has no idea. This is crazy.
June 23rd, 2010 at 07:23am