I Don't Even Know What To Think Anymore.

It feels like I'll never be happy again. So many bad memories flooding back to me, and they won't go away. I've been on all the meds, none of them work. Anxiety Attacks. Panic Attacks. Depression. All a part of me now, because of those memories. I've gotten into things I shouldn't, because of those memories. I just wish that those never happened. So many 11:11 and tunnel wishes wasted, thinking everything would turn out right. But, you know what? They never fucking did. And they never fucking will. Every day, I turn to music to try and soothe myself, but even that's not helping anymore. I don't know what's going on anymore. So many things racing through my skull, I can't even grasp on to them. I just - I don't know what's going on, I don't know why, and I don't know if it'll stop. Please. I'm begging you. Make it stop. Who is "you", you may ask? Well, I don't know that either. I don't know the answers, and neither do you.